Yeah this is a story y’all of God’s grace
What we going to do right here is go back
Back into time

Life got me locked in this paradox of true lies
I try to maintain and when I can’t I find I’m getting high
Numbing these emotions that plague a sober mind
My ulcer burns inside but I ignore the sign
I’ve been to church the place of worship even walked in spirit
But in the end my flesh was the realest see
I still believe in God though we ain’t talked in a while
Ever since he took my dad life’s been kinda wild
My girl loves me but she doesn’t love what I do
She says you drink too much and all you think about is you
I know I’m selfish I can’t help it I’m an only child
A mamma’s boy she raised me by herself and meanwhile
Dad was out dodging cops and getting crazy high
Then caught the virus through the iris of the needles eye
I guess a man at his best is but a mere breath
Life dulls your pulse results turn to dust feel me

This was my life apart from Christ
A wise man’s tragedy lost in my vanity
A time to live a time to die
Madness and folly versus the wisdom of the prince of peace
He heard my cry from the depths of defeat
Sometimes heaven seems far and God so out of reach
He heard my cry from the depths of defeat
I know the lies say it loud but wisdom shouts in the streets

Give me my medication for this Ill persuasion nurse
My temper’s shorter than my memory during these outbursts
And now I’m locked calling peeps collect that won’t accept
Where are my friends ‘til the end it seems I have none left
So why he wise when the same fate befalls the fool
We all die and peep why living’s similar to prison food
We’re never satisfied with the portion life provides
Truth’s hard to swallow yet this bare essential keeps us alive
I’m on a tier where no tears should ever fall
But don’t have Griff and the S1’s about to scale the wall
My time is short so I sit back and contemplate my moves
Instead of drugs when I get out I’ll hit ‘em off with tunes
Not a change due to jail or to some godly fear
But for my earth who gave me birth and for her many tears
Not a change due to jail or to some godly fear
But for my earth who gave me birth and for her many tears

This was my life apart from Christ
A wise man’s tragedy lost in my vanity
A time to live a time to die
Madness and folly versus the wisdom of the prince of peace
He heard my cry from the depths of defeat
Sometimes heaven seems far and God so out of reach
He heard my cry from the depths of defeat
I know the lies say it loud but wisdom shouts in the streets

Yeah let us move on

No longer locked in this paradox of true lies
No longer wanna die the spirit inside me wants to try
It took so long so much unnecessary pain
The sex the weed the alcohol the crack cocaine
Tried to change for mom but her tears weren’t enough
I couldn’t be trusted and from a distance she was forced to love
Locked up again and even on the outs I wasn’t free
Kicked out the shelter in the winter sleeping on the streets
But somehow God kept me through all this pain and strife
Was told I’m worthless but he had a purpose for my life
Had to put it in check can’t be pimped by my flesh
A living soul breathed by God more than a mere breath
See something deep inside told me I was so much more
No longer mad at him my arms are too short to spar
Something deep inside told me I was so much more
I threw my hands up and surrendered to the lord of lords
But my friends see that’s not where the story ends
And to my foes who will hold me to my former flows
Despite what you heard the word got this brother changed
It won’t happen over night but I’m on my way
Not a change due to jail or to my mother’s cry
I let him do for me what I couldn’t do for I
Not a change due to jail or to my mother’s cry
I let him do for me what I couldn’t do for I

This was my life apart from Christ
A wise man’s tragedy lost in my vanity
A time to live a time to die
Madness and folly versus the wisdom of the prince of peace
He heard my cry from the depths of defeat
Sometimes heaven seems far and God so out of reach
He heard my cry from the depths of defeat
I know the lies say it loud but wisdom shouts in the streets
This was my life apart from Christ
A wise man’s tragedy lost in my vanity
A time to live a time to die
Madness and folly versus the wisdom of the prince of peace
He heard my cry from the depths of defeat
Sometimes heaven seems far and God so out of reach
He heard my cry from the depths of defeat
I know the lies say it loud but wisdom shouts in the streets